Why do they call it heartbreak?
It’s really a whole body break, isn’t it?
When you’re rejected, your whole body reacts.
And just like any trauma to your body
Sometimes you have to learn to walk again.
You take it step by step by step.
And when your heart is broken,
You take it breath by breath by breath.
And you wonder all the time
What did I do?
And you ask,
Please, please come back to me
Or, please, can I come back?
Because I’m broken, can’t you see?
A child in her crib feels her whole body break when her father leaves her.
An eleven year old girl feels her whole body break when her mother rejects her.
And she has to learn how to breathe again.
Breath by breath by breath.
Every time she experiences traumatic rejection,
It is not just a matter of mending a broken heart.
Her whole body is broken.
And she takes one step, one breath at a time
Hoping the next one comes.
And each time
She valiantly tells herself
That when that final breath comes
She hopes she’s going to heaven
Seeing as she’s already been to hell.
It must be where she came from in the beginning
Because it’s the only explanation, isn’t it?
Why does she suffer so much rejection?
No one wants her
Because she’s hell to live with.