Let me go. I tried. Failed.
Allow me peace in my way.
I’ve paid my dues. It’s over.
I want no pity. Just acceptance.
Tears have depleted my body, soul.
I remain proud of my legacy.
Alana, Heath, Gwyneth: They are exquisite.
They deserve everything I never had.
I’m ready to stop the pain.
I surrender trying to be loved.
My final effort: to love myself.
I have nothing left to give.
Accepting abandonment of me ends now.
I will finally accept melancholic mediocrity.
I’m tired, exhausted. Only peace, please.
Slow my brain, ease my pain.
I gave away my entire self.
I didn’t know. I was unprepared.
I failed myself. I couldn’t surmount.
I waited too long. I broke.
I’m ashamed of all my efforts.
i’m giving up gracefully. Let me.